Many people experience anxiety. Anxiety can show up when you are about to have a job interview, make a speech at your best friend’s wedding, go on a roller coaster, or about to do anything out of your comfort zone.
Many people also experience anxiety for no reason what-so-ever. For many people, it’s a mixture of both having a reason and not having a reason. I just happen to be one of those people. I have been struggling with anxiety for so long that I can’t really think of a time I haven’t struggled with it. I’ve experienced the slight, twinge in the pit of your stomach, anxiety. I’ve also experience debilitating, I can’t breathe, anxiety. Neither are fun. People experience it differently. For me, I lose my appetite. I can’t think straight, I can’t breathe. Sometimes I’m numb, sometimes I feel too much. Sometimes I know why, sometimes I have no clue. Sometimes I feel so lost.
My daughter and husband are one of the biggest reasons I decided to write this blog. They have inspired me from day 1. Anxiety is the other big reason for me to start this blog. Writing is therapy for me. When I write down my thoughts and feelings, it’s almost as if the weight of anxiety is being lifted and I can finally breathe. I used to make lists on lists on lists. Goals I wanted to accomplish, projects I wanted to finish, things I could control.
Control. The idea of being in control, or the lack there of, I feel is one of the biggest reasons I get anxiety (maybe a post on that later). Writing makes me feel like I have taken that back. If I can reach someone who has anxiety, by my writing and my blog, to let them know they are not alone and that there are ways to beat anxiety in the moment (because let’s face it, it’s going to come back one day) then taking this risk and putting myself out there will all be worth it.